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[Note: Will is unlikely to use video unless there is a good need for it. He'd be more inclined to do text until he's made a substantial recovery and becomes more comfortable with voice.]

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[Will's lost memories are the key to his freedom, or so he believes. Wants to believes. The words of a madman, no matter how true they ring, against the word of Hannibal Lecter would be like throwing pebbles at a brick wall in the hopes of it falling over. But if he can remember enough, can pinpoint details and evidence overlooked, he could do it. He could. No one needs to save him, he just needs a little help. If it takes being used as a prize patient, so be it. If it takes every bit of blood in his body in the end, if it comes to he and Lecter and a kitchen full of knives, so

be

it.

Twenty sessions that might give him twenty memories of just driving? Fine. He'll take it. Fifty. But he will go until he finds at least one that points straight to his innocence. Anything. Nothing is too far, not now.]

Why would it be unpleasant? [His might come back in hideous ways, ways that involving sweating, the fear he's dying, being unable to stand for hours after. But they may just come from something that reminds him of it. A meal might trigger something, he doesn't know. He tries here in Asgard, but nothing has really struck him so far.] Do you think you'd have to do something that might be hurtful to get them back? There are methods that can be used, some that are not awful. You might just get them back on your own.

The brain is a very interesting part of the body. It might not come back in an unpleasant way.

[He's ignoring the last part. He hopes that his continuing to talk to her shows that no, he doesn't mind at all.]

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[Through what? Through hypnosis? Well, no. She never wants to deal with that again. Or have anyone assist her with memories. It has to be done by her own means, no one else. The brain may be interesting, but the mind is delicate. She cringes at the thought.]

I would rather have them return to me by my own means. Other things will not work; that's how it should be done. That is how memories return, isn't it, through painful means? It always seems that way.

["I should be used to it!" She wants to say. Suddenly, Alice finds herself retreating.]

But not to worry, these things happen.

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[Perhaps it's best he never discuss more modern treatments with her. Oh yes, it's been said they're less barbaric. Of course some of them are. Some of them. But with the rise of medicine came newer drugs and Will couldn't say that some of them would be

off the table

when it came to a certain place. When it came to how determined he was to remember. Hopefully it all came out before he ended up possibly frying his brain or losing hold of himself, giving up control in desperation.

He knew who he was. More importantly, he knew who he wasn't. The mind may be delicate, he'd say, but if the brain wasn't working properly...everything else was just as delicate, if not more so.]

Sometimes a little kick in the pants is needed to help recovery memory. That's all I'm saying. [What an understatement.] It would be nice to find it without any help, but that's rather rare. In my experience.

[Nice. Easy. Those? Don't really have a place in grown up life.]

"These things." Did something happen or did you just have issues with memory?

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[Subtle hints and vague questions. That is all Alice will do or so she vows. Asgard has gave her a clean slate and there's no one here to hold her past against here. Not as many people to take advantage of it. The former, fragile Rutledge patient.

It won't be undone again.]

It is difficult, but it can be done.

[You would just have to go to Wonderland -- your Wonderland, in a sense.]

I suppose I should say it would not be the first time and that is all I will say. Because the last thing I am is insane.

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You don't have to be insane to lose days. That doesn't make you insane.

[She's a little hung up on this whole insane thing, he's noticed. He can't say he's not hung up on it, too, but now that he knows who he is and who he's not, he's got a better grasp on it. He still gets a little hot under the collar and wakes up sweating, but it's much better than it was before. He's got a doctor and a simple treatment plan to thank for that.

He's also got a doctor and a complicated treatment plan to thank for his real issues with insanity in the first place. He's got another doctor he'll return to that he cannot believe would make it any better unless Will takes it upon himself to bring about a compromise.

Insanity is a hell of a thing. Will knows. All he can hope is that whatever happened to make her stuck on it wasn't as bad as what happened to him. No one deserves that.

But what if it was worse?]

A misfiring in the brain that can cause a black out or a loss of time isn't insanity. It's a physical problem. There's plenty of things that could cause it. Just because it's not common or commonly spoken of doesn't automatically mean you're insane, Alice.

[Will's not insane. Never was. He was just sick. Sick and getting sicker, and all on purpose.]

Anyone who says otherwise doesn't know what they're talking about and should shut their traps.

[he is
a little
mad]

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[If only he knew.

It's not the first time she's heard a reassurance, from another dubious person. Pyro, for example, but he knows a little bit more than most do. She's suddenly feeling a little self-conscious even sending that to him to the first place. Whatever it is, she gets a small reminder of Rutledge. That's never a good sign.

Alice isn't the most familiar with modern slang, it only takes a few minutes to stop herself from asking "what traps?" before it dawns on her.

Oh. He wants them to shut up? Okay, Alice can agree with that. Everyone around her sans Nan Sharpe have been a bit of a joke. On a better day, she would smile.]

The sentiment is shared, Mr. Graham.

[No, but raving and ranting about hallucinations can be up there, not that Will wants to know.]

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[Dubious. Will could handle being thought of as dubious. Law enforcement is a field that attracts some rather unwanted individuals, there is no doubt about it. Law enforcement, journalism, certain parts of the medical field...]

Feel better?

[Where else is there to go from there, really?]

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[Not really, no. Alice won't burden him with that and she's already worried that she's done so. She gives a hollow reassurance that she will be.]

I do, thank you.

[It makes her even more worried for him rather than her own well-being.]

Next time, you can share if you like. Even if it's something silly about your dogs. Or just happy things.

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[Layers and layers of lies hidden beneath the sad glint in a child's eyes.

Too bad he can't see her eyes.]

I'm glad, and I'll keep that in mind. Hope everything looks up for you, Alice.

[There are so few happy things in his life, and she basically mentioned the big one: dogs. He has no reason to call on a child (or anyone) unless he absolutely needs them, same as no one will have a reason to call upon a cannibalistic serial killer once he returns home unless it's out of need.

What a world.]

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[Only because there are things that she sees that remind her a little too much of herself. Or even the darker aspects of Wonderland.

Still proceeding with caution.]

Thank you, Mr. Graham, I hope the same for you as well.

[In the meantime, Alice will... just let him be for now, out of fear of bothering him enough as it is.]