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And do you have any recommendations, if I wanted to do both?

[Because trust in that he knows what he's doing, he already has. It's what he was hired for. Trusting him as a person... well. He knows that's going to take effort. He's probably going to have to start doing some... actual superheroing. Sigh.]

Yeah. Got a couple, actually. First one would be not to tell people you're using them like they're using you. You blab your mouth, you'll end up telling the wrong person one day. Come back and bite you right in the rump.

[Censoring himself is...well, he's used to it. He feels the kid gets what he means either why. It's not meant as an adult-to-young-person scolding, nor is it meant as Will implying he'd tell on him. He wouldn't. He's hidden some pretty nasty stuff himself, and like hell does he want to get anywhere near the government if they have...proper files on his real career back home.]

Tell your teammates this, too? Anybody else?

I know that much. I'm taking a risk even talking to you like this. I took the preemptive of reinforcing the privacy levels of this conversation aside from it just being our one-on-one, but there's no safe way of communicating this, aside from us sitting next to each other in person, and writing our responses down on paper, and then destroying said paper afterwards. After all, they can track us via these tattoos. Who's to say they can't listen to our spoken words, or even thoughts?

[Surprise, actually also a member of the Tin Hat Club.]

I've told them that I took the government job for reasons. I didn't go into the reasons, but they're aware.

[Tin Hat Club, Fishing Hat Club, it's all good.]

If it's possible they can listen to our spoken words and even our thoughts then they'd already know exactly what's up. And be working a way to counter that and, eventually, screw you over. Might find it funny for a while, but humor fades. Eventually.

[Like whenever he realizes what certain questionable remarks made by a good friends mean, that humor will evaporate immediately.]

Told anybody the reasons yet? Do I get to be the first? Consultant to consultant?

[As long as there's not a bunch of horrifying murders in the works (or, really, murders in general), Will's a nice bet for people it's safe to tell. Tell, won't go anywhere, won't make him stop talking because he doesn't care. Has to pass downtime at work somehow, doesn't he?]

... They'd be pretty mad at me for not telling them first.

[And he sounds like he actually feel guilty, about this.]

Only if they find out.

[He's kept a secret before that led to the family and friends of two murdered siblings going without justice for weeks, possibly forever once he gets his name cleared. There's no reason "good" enough for that, especially not when the secret was kept to preserve innocence that he knew wasn't all there.

When it comes to keeping secrets, Will? He's got this.]

Could they even be of any help? Dealing with the government. It's...it's tricky business. Been doing it half my life almost. Take advantage of it or don't. Still have that same experience if you ever change your mind.

I don't think they'd be of any help, but it's my lack of explaining my actions that put me in trouble with them before. If I do that again, I'm definitely going to be punished.

[Maybe you just... shouldn't ask, Will.]

... I'll be telling them as well. And while I shouldn't be telling you, I hardly know you... You seem trustworthy. I'm typically a good judge of this. I'll hope my instincts are right.

It's not exactly a surprise. I'd be gaining their trust to hopefully be promoted. Find out information from the inside, rather than hack it from the out, like I had tried before.

[Trustworthy isn't something he gets often, but it's not entirely off the mark. Trustworthy to keep his mouth shut? Sure. Trustworthy to not get driven overboard (nautical jokes!) and possibly kill people? Not...so much. Unfortunately.]

Mmhmm. [Completely amused right now, that's Will.] If you get that information from the inside, how do you plan to use it? Can't just announce it to all of us like you did last time. Gotta be careful who you tell what you find to, too. Gotta be careful you don't do some sort of HIPPA-violation. Something that seems small to most people but would get you in lots of trouble. Prison time. Fines. Do not hire lists. All that life-destroying stuff.

[He has...no idea if the kid knows what HIPPA is. Hopefully his tiny explanation gets the point across.[

I announced it after I was caught. I'd already admit to my crime, telling the Network about my fate was hardly going to change anything for me.

My sole goal is finding a way back to my own world. That's it. I couldn't care less about the state of this world and it's future. I'm not the first to say I'm not happy with being here, and I won't be the last, but I don't see a point in complaining if there's something I can do about it. My life here is only temporary. I'm not going to spend it worried about whether or not I'll be hired anywhere else here if it means releasing information that will lead to an answer that we need.

[He doesn't know what HIPPA is, but he can pick up what it is from context.]

So. You wanna find a way back to your own world, that's it. Not a way back for everyone, just you and...whoever else you know.

[Teammates would be from his own home, too, maybe? His voice is gradually growing into more a mutter as he continues. Unimpressed.]

Wouldn't need to release information to anyone if you don't look for a way for all of us. Temporary life for you, might be forever for everyone else. That what I'm hearing?

I believe you're putting words in my mouth. The way the Porter works is that we have control over it's locations, or we don't. Finding an answer for myself is finding an answer for everyone. I'm not that selfish.

[Will's going to remain mum's the word on the first part. It might be hot in the shop and his day before might have been crappy, but there's no need to really get into an argument. He's probably already being grouchy enough.]

Are you open to the real answer being the one you don't want it to be? [Acceptance is the first step, wasn't that what Will had said? Going into something without accepting the answer could be the last one wanted...] All the evidence in your face that it can't be done, would you accept that?

[Being stubborn might as well be genetic, for how hardwired it is into Houka's personal code.]

It's been done before. It can be done now. I refuse to give up on an idea that hasn't infinitely been proven otherwise. While the fate of my world is apparently saved... There are people I need to see. I can't accept that I won't see them again.

[Will's getting that much. Kid's stubborn, kid's a kid (in his head; he keeps getting called old for a reason), kid's got good experience with computers, not sure if the kid's got good experience with Certain Kinds of work and how he'll have to behave in order to not only keep on the crew but move up.

Not everyone has pesky empathy skills and all that.]

And if it's infinitely proven otherwise? You do all this work, get the answer, it's not what you wanted—what then? [How many times had they found answers they didn't want, didn't want to see, refused to accept could ever be possible? How many times would it happen again, how would it happen when Will went home to a hospital and spat fire and venom and spit about how he didn't do it with tons of evidence thrust in his face saying he did?] There's a few outcomes. One is what you want. One is not what you want. You go into it convinced what you don't want is impossible, you'll. Damage yourself.

[If he was cracking around this for something minor, Will wouldn't be saying as much, making it seem intense. This was a big thing, though. Going home. Getting everyone home. I can't accept that I won't see them again—that was plenty intense on its own.]

[...He didn't really think about it too much, honestly. He knows there's the possibility for failure in his plans, but out of desire to ignore the negative, he's stopped considering failure as a possibility. For Lady Satsuki.

He's not liking this conversation much anymore.]

A risk I'll take.

[In case the hacking attempt wasn't obvious, he's a biiiiit reckless.]

[Finding the truth and the truth not being what he wants isn't failure. It's a possibility. It's one that sucks but one that has to be taken into consideration. That's all Will was trying to say.

He knows what it's like to hunt down the truth and find what he didn't want. Find it and lose it at the same time.

Damaged. Burned. Scarred. All of it. Like hell he'll fess up, though.]

If you're offered to learn something different, take it up. Ask about other departments when you've been there a while, but don't be overly eager to hear more about than what's readily offered. Learn and focus only on what they want you there for. Don't ever let on that you've got more interest than that. You want to build trust? Show them the only thing you're concerned with is what they want you to be concerned with. [It all comes out quickly, and even if it might be obvious, Will's had experience with "too much interest" in things that aren't very related to a job going sour. Precincts in large towns, not every cop who gets in is there for the right reasons. The kid's a kid, too, he keeps thinking. His job experience might be minimal at best.] Model employee learns what's required in the job they're designated. [Designs! Again!] Become that model employee. Make connections in other areas of the government. Learn more. Find other ways into other departments that they didn't tell you so much about when you first asked. Could lead to just what you want.

That's probably where they hide more important information. Department you'd least expect it. You'd be surprised where the FBI shifted certain things just so anyone who went snooping would never find it.

[What are morals.]

[He's young, like Will assessed. He hasn't experienced the same kind of betrayals and hardships Will has. Houka doesn't understand really, how crushing it can be for the truth to not be what he thinks it is, and for there to be no answer afterwards. He's had his truth questioned before, but he was given a path to follow after that. If there was the real possibility that he would be stuck in this world for the rest of his life... Without Satsuki, without Nonon, without Shiro...

This is all good advice and information though. He'll be sure to keep a note of all this.]

I suppose I'm lucky I have an... ex-federal agent? -to impart this advice.

[With the way Will's advising, it sounds like he knows exactly what he's talking about. ]

Special Investigator.

[He doesn't expect many people to know what that truly means. It's not a compliment. It's not a rank above or below. It's essentially a bullshit term slapped together to give Will some semblance of "belonging" in the field, as far as he's concerned. It's a joke and an insult and he'd honestly rather not have one at all. When interacting with most people, it's no big deal. When walking the halls of the Academy before he'd shot a serial killer to death in his own home?

Will knew his stuff. But he was still not enough. Special, but not as special as he needed to be.]

Not an agent. I had difficulty with some parts of the testing. Not sure if Doctor Chilton knows about anyone else but. I'd be the edge case he was talking about. The ex- part is still correct. I'm taking this as an early, bizarre retirement.

[There's something about the way he talks about Chilton that lets on Will might have some issues with him, and not just because of that comment.

Will wouldn't wish his understanding of the world due to the crap he's dealt with on anyone. He can't convince people if they're stubborn, willing to take risks and fly in the face of the possible. He's not the kind of guy most people would trust on many life lessons. He's not that...composed. Together.

Stable.]

Edited 2014-06-03 09:17 (UTC)

You know Chilton, then.

[Not that it wasn't somewhat obvious before, but confirmation was nice. And yes, he picks up the bitterness in that tone. Unfortunately for Will, Inumuta's already spoken to Chilton a few times, and all of those times have been somewhat flattering. Might have a bit of a tendency towards the other, than against.]

Based off what you're saying- or rather, your attitude on it, if you're taking this as retirement, then I'm assuming that if given the chance to go back to your world, you wouldn't take the opportunity. Right?

[…And maybe he's a bit into the same invasive questions as Chilton, might be why they get along like they do.]

Wrong.

[People are often Wrong about Will Graham. He doesn't give them more information than he needs to when he needs to. This question is a little invasive, but it's not phrased in a way that immediately has him ready to snarl, bark, bite, froth, spit.

His voice is firm. He's not angry, he just needs to make sure his point is clear.]

I have business to attend to back in my world. I have things that need to be taken care of. Things that I need to see done, not hear from anyone else, which is not meant as an insult to Doctor Chilton. Something I have to do on my own.

[Even if that means he'll have to...well, deal with Chilton.]

I can understand the views of those who would not want to return to theirs. That's all.

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