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You don't want discretion. You want me to go along with this like it's not absolute bullshit and a terrible idea and now that I'm not, you're throwing your death in my face.

[Everyone is a jerk, the show.]

I didn't realize you thought I was a doormat.

I'm not throwing it in your face! But every time someone says this isn't home it's because they're thinking of what they can go back to and I can't. I have nothing there. I had nothing there.

This is all I have.

So you think I'm running away and I am, but not the way that you think.

I'm not running away to something familiar.

THIS is my home now and I can't contextualize Minnesota as anything but my home until I see that it's not. But it's still the last place I saw my mom or Marissa and I miss them. I need them and this is as close as I can get anymore.

You're not a doormat. If I wanted a doormat, I would have asked Hannibal.

[ oh. snap. but lbr he was always pro-bringing abigail home. ]

I just thought

You'd get it.

But no one does.

And that's okay.

Don't be mad at Jayden, it's not his fault.

Bye.

[God. God. Why isn't he real dad, you are not too old to go over my knee. Real dad privileges!]

You're being stupid.

[SHE SAID HE COULD SAY IT ALANA WOULD APPROVE. No she wouldn't. It is a last ditch effort and very little effort has gone into it, or so it seems. He actually wrote out fifteen other things first and finally gave up. How to get a teenager's attention other than fall down to that level????? Jesus Christ. He actually doesn't think this is stupid but he also realizes that the more he tries to explain anything the more he's probably going to get shut down further because Abigail is upset and not thinking clearly and continually proving it.

Especially with the Hannibal shout-out.

If she dares to go off the grid for too long, Will is not at all afraid to call in a few favors and drag her kicking and screaming out of her hermit cave.]

[ radio silence.

because she's being over emotional and stupid.

but don't worry... ]

[ a few days later, the day before halloween, she texts back.

surprise??? ]

I'm back.

[ siren call of her crush on stiles combined with never ending self-loathing because ofc she'll come home to hang out with stiles even though he has a girlfriend apparently so abigail is shit out of luck. ]

It's a cemetery from my house to Marissa's.

[Did she live in the cemetery while she was gone?

Things not to ask.]

Is it a nice one?

It's expansive. I brought you a souvenir if you're not still mad at me,

I was never mad at you.

Well, I was mad at me.

[ this has not changed, actually. the guilt complex is so strong with this one. ]

I got that much.

[Picking up on other people's feelings, the life.

Though Abigail doesn't exactly make it very difficult.]

Where are you now? Heropa housing?

Yeah, in my room.

[ not incredibly keen on leaving. ever. except she came back to do a halloween thing with stiles. because that's totally helping her sort shit out. ]

Ziggy Stardust hates the Porter.

Gunther used to hate it. Then he realized it was an excuse for me to hold him like a baby, so now he's a fan.

[His dog doesn't hate the Porter, Will is not fooled at all.]

Know a couple of raccoons who ride Porter trips out better than I do. The more exposure to it, the more it'll become unremarkable and Ziggy won't even blink.

Sure.

[ or alternatively: cat lady hermit. ]

Shore.

[he's at a loss, is that obvious.]

[ she doesn't make it easy. ]

Stiles left.

That's why I kissed Jayden.

[ here's your context apropos of nothing, as always. ]

He came back.

He has a girlfriend back home.

He said Skye said that counts as cheating.

So.

That's over.

[His talk with Freddie about Jayden being a rebound is confirmed, so that's nice. The context isn't so nice, but it's nice to be right about things from time to time. Score Team Tragedy.]

I didn't realize Skye was an authority figure on relationships.

[Which sounds insulting as fuck, he realizes shortly after he sends it. So the next few texts just flood right in.]

I mean, if that's he he feels about the situation himself, it's good he'll stand up for it. That he's sticking with her even in a different world. It's not a bad thing. I wasn't trying to insult either of them with that. These things happen. Can't control it. You've probably never had any boyfriends before, right? This isn't actually abnormal. The different worlds part isn't what we're used to, of course, but the situation as it stands isn't so strange.

Stiles wasn't my boyfriend.

[ /literally cries about it. ]

It just

Sucks.

I thought I had something nice and then it was just gone.

[Goodness. He can't even say "Well that's a big thing that happens in life" because...she's dead. And that's a reminder and that's just RUDE.]

It does suck. Have some ice cream?

[Will would just drown himself in whiskey, but.]

Fake Ben & Jerry's. It's not working though.

And Chilton's wine.

I'm watching the Bureaucats. Which seems to be the equivalent to the Aristocats. Marie is Margaret Thatcher.

It's amazing.

I'll have to check it out. I found Olive & Crew not long after I got here. They didn't try so much with that change, but the whole movie is flipped. The cat is a dog. The dogs are cats. It was pretty amazing.

I can't sleep.

[ it's not specific to right now, more of a general thing, but also specific to right now because she's tired and can't sleep. ]

[he knows this feel]

You got any OTC sleeping aids in the house or anything that has the side effect of making you drowsy?

I don't like how they make me feel. I can't wake up from the nightmares.

Stop drinking the wine. That won't help. Turn the TV off, as well as any other electronics like music players that'll do nothing but provide stimulation. Do you have any bananas? Try eating one if you're not full. I'd suggest having milk with it, too, but another night. Don't take deep breaths. Take slow ones. When you lay down, see if you can get Ziggy to stretch out on top of you.

[Caged by the cat, the only reason to get up is to go to the bathroom, and only when it can't be held any further. Pets are great.]

That sounds gross.

[ bananas and milk. ]

Ziggy's mad at me because the Porter.

[ she's so not helpful. ]

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